Getting Back to Us

I blog a lot about Jace and not very often about Ben. Lately I have been thinking a lot about Ben and me and our relationship. By far, Jace is the greatest thing Ben and I have ever done together. In deciding to become parents, I didn't realize how much we were sacrificing us. I miss the care free days of laying in bed all day just enjoying each others company, not having to worry about a thing except when we would get up to eat. I miss being able to go on dates on a moments notice. I miss being intimate almost whenever we felt like it. I guess I just miss us! We are no longer the 2 of us...we are the 3 of us. I guess I'm just going through a period of adjustment and it is hard. It is hard to give up so much of yourselves for another person and still try to find time, energy, emotion etc for the 2 of you. I love my husband so much and watching him as a dad has only made that love grow. I would never ever ever take back the decision to have Jace. I'm just waiting to find the time and energy to be a wife and not just a mom. It seems I'm in mom mode all the time now and I don't make time to be Ben's wife. Does that make sense to other moms out there. Phil Vassar sings a song that describes my life perfectly right now....here are the lyrics....

Just Another Day in Paradise

The kids screaming, phone ringing
Dog barking at the mailman bringing
That stack of bills - overdue
Good morning baby, how are you?
Got a half hour, quick shower
Take a drink of milk but the milk's gone sour
My funny face makes you laugh
Twist the top on and I put it back
There goes the washing machine
Baby, don't kick it.
I promise I'll fix it
Long about a million other things

Well, it's ok. It's so nice
It's just another day in paradise
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Well, it's two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the lord every night
For just another day in paradise

Friday, you're late
Guess we'll never make our dinner date
At the restaurant you start to cry
Baby, we'll just improvise
Well, plan B looks like
Dominoes' pizza in the candle light
Then we'll tippy toe to our room
Make a little love that's overdue
But somebody had a bad dream
Mama and daddy
Can meand my teddy
Come in to sleep in between?

Yeah it's ok. It's so nice.
It's just another day in paradise.
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Well, it's two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the lord every night
For just another day in paradise

Well, it's ok. It's so nice.
It's just another day in paradise.
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the lord every night
For just another day in paradise

For just another day in paradise
Well, it's the kids screaming. The phone ringing
Just another day
Well, it's Friday. You're late
Oh yeah, it's just another day in paradise

I especially relate to the part...."Two hearts, and one dream, I wouldn't trade it for anything"
This song really speaks to my heart right now....I know one day I will figure out how to be more than just a mom...I love you Ben with all my heart and all my soul. Thank you for blessing me with our beautiful baby boy...our life really is a little piece of "paradise"